Stubbornness of filthy fool

A slightly different translation, when applied to myself all I am left with is the realization of my own pretensions. And an ardaas.

ਸੂਹੀ ਮਹਲਾ ੫ ॥

ਸੇਵਾ ਥੋਰੀ ਮਾਗਨੁ ਬਹੁਤਾ ॥
ਮਹਲੁ ਨ ਪਾਵੈ ਕਹਤੋ ਪਹੁਤਾ ॥੧॥
ਜੋ ਪ੍ਰਿਅ ਮਾਨੇ ਤਿਨ ਕੀ ਰੀਸਾ ॥
ਕੂੜੇ ਮੂਰਖ ਕੀ ਹਾਠੀਸਾ ॥੧॥ ਰਹਾਉ ॥
ਭੇਖ ਦਿਖਾਵੈ ਸਚੁ ਨ ਕਮਾਵੈ ॥
ਕਹਤੋ ਮਹਲੀ ਨਿਕਟਿ ਨ ਆਵੈ ॥੨॥
ਅਤੀਤੁ ਸਦਾਏ ਮਾਇਆ ਕਾ ਮਾਤਾ ॥
ਮਨਿ ਨਹੀ ਪ੍ਰੀਤਿ ਕਹੈ ਮੁਖਿ ਰਾਤਾ ॥੩॥
ਕਹੁ ਨਾਨਕ ਪ੍ਰਭ ਬਿਨਉ ਸੁਨੀਜੈ ॥
ਕੁਚਲੁ ਕਠੋਰੁ ਕਾਮੀ ਮੁਕਤੁ ਕੀਜੈ ॥੪॥ 

ਦਰਸਨ ਦੇਖੇ ਕੀ ਵਡਿਆਈ ॥
ਤੁਮ੍ਹ੍ਹ ਸੁਖਦਾਤੇ ਪੁਰਖ ਸੁਭਾਈ ॥੧॥ ਰਹਾਉ ਦੂਜਾ ॥੧॥੭॥

Raag Suhi, the 5th abode of the light of Nanak (Guru Arjan)

 Despite insignificant service, making huge demands.
Not finding (or knowing the path to) the Eternal abode, yet claiming arrival ||1||
Mimicking those who bask in the glory of the beloved.
These (mentioned above & below) are but the stubbornness of a filthy fool (i.e. me)! ||1||Pause||
Displaying guise & garb of truthfulness, but not practicing Truth.
Declaring arrival at the true home, being nowhere near it. ||2||
Enacting a Pretension of unattached, but completely intoxicated & high on Maya*.
Having a heart devoid of love, and yet proclaiming complete to be completely drenched in it. ||3||

Says Nanak, O Prabh*, hear my prayer:
Please liberate this crooked, stubborn and libidinous being (from my crookedness, stubbornness and excessive perversion & libido)! ||4||

Oh! The glory of witnessing your Darshan*,
You are the bestower of Sukh*, all pervasive greatness. ||1||Second Pause||1||7||

*Prabh: Another name for 1 Oankar
*Maya: That which takes us away from seeing the all pervasive 1 Oankar 
*Darshan: Complete presence, complete understanding, Philosophy
*Sukh: joy, benefits.